Not good
Well my current “roommate” type situation is getting worse. For those you who don’t know: I’m living with someone, we bought a house and a bad relationship has gotten worse. It sucks, literally, the whole thing will suck the life right out of you.
He’s now talking about living together, but living separate lives. He keeps talking about how he has friends who have done that. NOT! That just doesn’t work for me, I’m an all or nothing type of gal. So it’s time to get the hell out fast.
The house will be in his name only soon, so I won’t have to worry about it. After I leave, if he can’t afford it, it will be his problem. Normally I’m not so harsh, but he refuses to sell it, won’t talk to me about it, and just runs around calling it HIS house. I have no say in what happens around here and I pay more than half the mortgage.
So I’ve been packing. This is what the spare bedroom (my art studio) looks like. Yeah, it’s a mess, lol. I’ve been packing little by little. If you think the room looks bad, you should see what’s in the closet, it’s packed solid. I’m hoping to start moving things actually out in the next week. Problem is, I have no where to go and no money to do it with.
I think my sister might let me store some stuff at her house, I’m not sure. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, but something has to change. I can’t stay in this situation any more, it’s killing me. I want this to be the best summer ever and it isn’t going to happen if I stay.
I can’t believe all the shit I’ve acquired. It’s a huge pain in the ass. I’m going through everything and ditching everything I can, but I still have a ton of stuff. And it’s really hard to do alone, I need an army of helper monkies, lol.
Every time I think I’m getting things situated and packed up, it seems like more stuff appears. It seems to be a never ending battle.
I’ll get there, I know that, even if it does seem endless. I’m really hoping to have things figured out by May 21. There’s an event a few hours away that I want to go to really bad. But I won’t be able to go if I’m still here.
Keeping my fingers crossed.
J
