Disappointed

Been a rough couple of days for me.

Started with a total knock down, drag out fight with the boyfriend. I won’t give the gory details, he wanted me to do something that I did not want to do. So I said no (which I’m not allowed to do).

I said no and I stood my ground. It was amazing, I haven’t done that in years. It felt awesome. And I think it really surprised him, only for a second, before he started the screaming, etc.

All I can say, is he better get used to it. I’m sick of being told I’m the bad guy and getting pushed around. It’s not gonna happen any more, I won’t let it.

Unfortunately my outing to Evansville has been canceled. I just don’t have the money to make it there and back. Which really friggin sucks, I was so looking forward to it. But there’s other things I need to take care of around here.

One big factor was having to have some work done on our furnace. We would have put it off til next year, but we’ve still been getting 30-40 degree nights here. So we really needed heat. And with heat comes being behind, yet again.

Has anyone ever tried to raise $200 in 5 days? I’m trying, lol. I hate being behind and having the threat of shut offs looming. I have my get paid money coming, but it won’t be here until June. Just figures. A day late and a dollar or 200 short.

It’ll work out, I hope. I just hate all the stress. I literally can’t eat or sleep because I’m freaking out about everything. Which in turn makes it hard to think or function. Ug.

*squints* That might be light at the end of the tunnel………then again, it might just be the starvation and exhaustion setting in.

Have a great day.

J